I saw a crow on Sunday - go figure, ha! But what was different about this particular Crow, was that he flew down to meet me, as I walked to Church (Church is another enigmatic subject for posting) and lit proudly on the wire across the street. As he peered at me clearly showing off his prize. I noted with initial aghast! that he was holding an ample bird (dead) in his beak. My first thought was immediate fear - seems to be my kneejerk reaction to EVER-Y-THING. But as I pondered it, I noted his pride, his showing me his prize. He had a feast! He was excited! He was going to eat well with his family tonight!
That very afternoon I, too, feasted. And now I know what I want. I feasted on a great meal for the soul. I connected with two people of whom I value their opinions and experiences. I can learn from these people and share with them. We are kindred spirits. They awaken my heart and make me feel light and joyful. They make me feel valuable and loved. This is the meal I have been missing. I've had it in the past, but have not had the vision to always appreciate it, and not shared the values I currently hold. I've also feasted on the Spirit in ways, lately, that I could not have ever fathomed in my previous life. I feel very grateful. and always - HUNGRY FOR MORE!
In the past my feasting has constituted junk food, material objects, self abuse (negative self talk and bad habits)... I no longer want want isn't real. I want a feast for the heart. A feast for the Soul. I want to experience joy like never before... and I can, I've tasted it and I'm ready for more!
Today is my show, RAVEN*OUS's opening reception... I'm terrified and excited! Yesterday my show opened to the public on 02/19, 2019 at 1919... on a FULL MOON! That excites me, and validates the importance for me of this work that I'm now doing.
And today, as I walked toward work, thinking about tonight and trying to release the fear I feel, I saw another bird fly by, he, too, had a large meal in his beak - no doubt headed off to share it with the fam. I hope 'tis an omen of another hearty heart meal for me... <3